when he got me spun

you left when you found out I wasn't going to be bad for you. damn boy. i loved you. i'm sorry i couldn't kill your fire. sorry if i fanned your flames to new exponents. mmh. i only wanted to bring your light up as high as it could go. it was selfish. i know. i wanted the world to know. you were always so humble and that i hated. cuz i thought it was selfish. you, not sharing your flow with the parched citizens of the dunes.

you left when you found out i'd never pull the plug. sux when you tell someone you're lonely to hang out with them cuz then they won't. not without pity in their eyes. and i woulda held onto your corpse forever if it let me, if forever let me. i woulda grown a banyan tree above us and waited in the sun years for its shade to come. i woulda blistered to preserve you.

pity. you left when i saw the pity in your eyes. damn. we never were ones to wear the mask. we never were ones to float above the briar patch. but the difference is i'd leap face first into the thorns if it meant you could use the drops of my blood for a trail. like hansel and gretel with the bread crumbs, but crumbs of my blood. if that make sense.  

you left cuz you didn't want to make it. i understood. i loved a coward like you. how you wanted to find someone to do it for you. shame, i didn't break your legs.