I know why I felt bad leaving the stage. I had provided all these between the joke windows but refused to explain what they were saying. And they didn't necessarily care. An indirect viewing of how hurt I was, without just saying it.
Laughter wasn't the point for me but I functioned under that guise and toed the edge.
They were there to get away from theirs. You were allowed to do the same. Just be there for the joy.
I dunno sometimes I just feel like the ugliest girl at prom. Remember that tag next time, it makes the joke, ties it up into a bow.
