It's interesting what inspires the individual when major conflicts fade into past obscurities.
Once intense feelings deteriorate into pale abstractions. What's left after the wreckage is a wide open terrain. How it's explored rests entirely on the courage of the individual. Scarred, shattered, bruised, the human walks forward, continuing a moment in a wildly new context.
It's no coincidence that people stumble into and back out of our lives at specific times while we inhabit various forms of energy. You certainly can use the people you're drawn to, and who are drawn to you, in a given time, as reflections of your own current state.
Sometimes these same human interactions and transactions can feel not just attracted by our personal climate but by time-cyclical, like they're set off by unknown alarm clocks.
Whether randomly or magnetically we all become symbols in one another's lives and for better or worse we can ignore the impact we make and the times we share or we can understand them to better grasp this continually changing road map that is the journey of life in this current form.
I believe we can create our own chaos or aspire to nothing. Today I read a quote "A life lived full of mistakes is better than a boring life, lived from fear" loosely translated as all of my quotes are, I painfully enjoy this outlook. Painfully, because mistakes normally are, but once again it's always in the outlook because some will tell you that there "are no mistakes, only lessons." I'd like to contribute the idea that beyond the learned lessons, we find our freedoms, passions, loves.
Sometimes beautiful mistakes occur. Sometimes a guy can consume too many intoxicants and find himself leaning against a pillar in a two-story sports bar. Sometimes he can reach out his empty beer pitcher, cheers the first young woman that walks by him, and sometimes lightning strikes. Actions create the imprints on our lives. Even inactions are actions. Everything is a choice. Even physically bound, our minds can choose our reactions. The energy and outlook we bring to these chosen motions are what determine the results, whether tangible or perceptive.
We are not lost. We are questioning. Exploring, we are rapidly gaining ground on our next greater purpose, we can coax it's arrival by being receptive to our delightfully present and meticulously, sometimes painfully, created intuition. We build and nurture ourselves, move toward our visions, breathe in the moments, stay aware, lose ourselves, recreate, learn from mistakes or otherwise, and we feel something powerful growing, then lightning strikes.
